Life Is Beautiful
CPTSD Rebekah Brown CPTSD Rebekah Brown

Life Is Beautiful

In the early morning hours of a winter’s day in 1944, Corrie Ten Boom stood in line for roll call at Ravensbruck Concentration Camp. A middle-aged woman, she and her family had been arrested by the Nazis for saving Jews. Standing in that awful place surrounded by suffering, Corrie lifted her eyes to the sky. Suddenly, a lark flew overhead. Its song soared to the heavens. Every prisoner looked up. For the next three weeks, the lark appeared every morning and became a reminder to Corrie that even in the midst of despair, truth and beauty and goodness continue.

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How trauma works in family systems
CPTSD Rebekah Brown CPTSD Rebekah Brown

How trauma works in family systems

I sat with several other children in the dark, dank little basement of the church where my father was pastor. Karen Wray, my Sunday School teacher, pointed to the classic drawing of Jesus welcoming the children. I pondered it for a long time. Nobody in my home greeted me like that, and no one in the church knew what was going on when my family left the building on Sunday mornings.

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When Parents are abusers
CPTSD Rebekah Brown CPTSD Rebekah Brown

When Parents are abusers

I had looked forward to the Mary Kay Cosmetics party my mother was hosting all week. Too little to wear make-up, I certainly wasn’t too small to be interested. I had looked at every picture in the Mary Kay catalogue and dreamed of the day when I could get my hands on some of the tiny lipstick samples. I knew I was a scrawny-legged child, too ugly to be of interest to the fancy ladies who would be attending the party, but I was determined to do my best to fit in. Putting on my Sunday dress and buckling my black patent leather shoes, I watched through the window as the guests began to arrive.

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how to stop dissociation
CPTSD Rebekah Brown CPTSD Rebekah Brown

how to stop dissociation

In the popular children’s book “Ramona the Pest” by Beverly Cleary, five-year-old Ramona is told to “sit here for the present” by her kindergarten teacher, Miss Binney. Misunderstanding the instruction, Ramona refuses to move from her seat for the rest of the day. She thinks the teacher’s requests for participation in classroom activities are a test of her obedience. If she moves from her seat, Miss Binney will not give her the promised present. Ramona’s happiness at being promised a present leads to shame and ridicule by her classmates when her mistake is revealed.

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how to heal from childhood trauma
CPTSD, Recovery Rebekah Brown CPTSD, Recovery Rebekah Brown

how to heal from childhood trauma

There is a rhythm to life. Night turns into day, morning becomes evening, autumn changes to winter, and spring becomes summer. Meal times are a daily ritual and holidays a yearly cause for celebration. Life achievements and milestones move in a natural, ever-flowing stream of beginnings and endings. As human beings, we move and breathe and live according to this life-giving ebb and flow. 

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